Wednesday, September 21, 2011

lost & almost found.


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hey kiddos...it's been a while, huh? i want to apologize to you, dear friends, fans, sponsors, and readers, for my lengthy absense. it's not that i want to be away or to stop blogging in general, it's just that to stay sane, life is all about prioritizing, and there are certain things that i need to take care of before i can happily sit down and begin blogging again. i'm sure all of you can see from my posts over the past two years the joy this blog brings me, and that hasn't changed. while looking back, it sometimes felt as though my second full-time job consisted of taking and editing photos of my outfits, but then i remember all of the things i would not have accomplished, all of the places i would not have been able to visit, and especially all of the amazing people i would not have met had it not been for the time and effort put into my blog - and those rewards make every minute worth it, 110%.

i feel as though since around january, i've really come into myself, as a person and as a woman. being humble, you will rarely ever hear me talk about myself (it was hard enough getting kind of personal in this post), but i've always been extremely independent and motivated, with a passion for life and a quiet confidence to be successful, do good things, and pursue what i love without worrying about others' thoughts and opinions. nothing could or can stop me. but last year, i realized something wasn't quite right. something was missing. what i wanted from life and what the people around me wanted from life were completely different. i wasn't sure what to do about it, so i just sat back and waited for the answers. but then, after a long business trip to dallas, something inside of me opened up, a feeling that made me really believe in myself. it inspired me to do exactly what i want and do it for no one else but myself, even if it meant taking a huge leap of faith. i had to get the ball rolling on my future.

i know it would have been relatively easy to continue life in small town indiana, but a part of me wasn't happy. so i did it. after much hard work and many sacrifices, i moved to chicago, and i love it here. despite the setbacks i've faced in the past four months, despite the many times i've wanted to run back home crying, there are so many reasons why it feels right here, and i do not regret my decision for one second. i am a strong person, probably stronger than anyone takes me for, and although no one can predict the future, i will, with all of the hope in the world, do what i can to make everything i have ever dreamed of become a reality.

still, right now, i'm in sort of a life funk - you know what i'm talking about? certain changes need to happen and big decisions need to be made. some things are going my way, exactly as i had planned; others, not so much. it happens to us all, and while i figure it all out, blogging does have to be put on the back burner. my passions haven't disappeared; my love for style, traveling, writing, and the internet, all the things that have to do and come along with blogging, are still alive and well. i don't think i've ever mentioned that i enjoy writing. i always have, ever since i was a child keeping diary upon diary. it's not like i'm a distinguished writer or that i have a way with words that comes easily to some people, but there's just something about expressing yourself through the written word that comes naturally to me, and often it's much easier to write how i feel than it is to speak what's on my mind. sometimes i look back and regret that i didn't pursue a degree in journalism or something of the sort, but then i realize that this blog is a great way to satisfy that little literature-loving piece of myself.

there's one thing i know for sure: i'm a simple person. it doesn't take much to make me happy. you'd be surprised that i've actually streamlined my life in so many ways. i've purged my closet and my life of everything unnecessary and i know just what i want, what i need, and exactly what will make me happy. once i smooth out a few kinks though, i will be back to blogging. i cannot promise when that will be, but i can promise that i will indeed return when the time is right, and sooner rather than later would be ideal. i want to continue to inspire you as much as you inspire me.

it has nothing and everything to do with this post, but here's my favorite quote right now: "the most ordinary things can be made extraordinary, simply by doing them with the right people." and it's so true. what is life without the exceptional people you choose to share it with; the living, learning, and growing you do together, the quality time spent and the memories you make?

you can still follow me on twitter, email me at cayleemariew@yahoo.com, or leave a comment here on this post. i'd love to talk and keep in touch, as always.

xx
caylee


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20 comments:

Marissa said...

hey caylee,
i think its great that you followed your heart! i know that all things might not be perfect right now, but it will all work out and before you know it you'll be right where you want to be. it's all apart of growing pains. good luck to you! i wish you the best!

PinkPopMash

Anonymous said...

Hrm, I enjoy your blurb but you didn't really offer up much about your current struggles. Just as your admirers use this blog as inspiration, the same can be said about you inspiring them to push through the obstacles but how would they know if they are experiencing the same when you don't give much up? - Additionally, with no real idea of how you can overcome these problems, and understand if these are not overnight decisions it left it open ended if this blog will go back to where it left off, and if that is worth your followers to sit tight.

Anonymous said...

I hope you will come back sooner to blogging! What doesn't kill us makes us stronger...Good luck!!! All will be good!!

Fashion Dubrovnik said...

Just do what you think it's best for you, we always have to follow our heart, no matter how hard it is. Be strong, and everything will come on it's place :)
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Francheska said...

that was great to read Caylee! I think you´re making the right decision. after all, if this blog is a representation of who you are.. you must feel completely yourself! so if you need some time to sort things out and just get life going, then thats what you gotta do!

cannot wait for you to come back but in the meantime! have a fantastic time!
much love,
Francheska

Deppa said...

Pretty words here :)
I'm glad that you are feeling that way.

Have a nice day.
See you!

STACi P. said...

sometimes it takes one simple experience to change your life forever. I understand your "struggle" and passion to find yourself. after all, fashion, style, blogging, and social media are all great and wonderful, entertaining outlets of self expression. but what good are those outlets if you don't know who are you are to express ? personally, thats exactly why i started writing & blogging in the first place. I've had many outlets and many thoughts, but they've all led me to the same place. love who you are and do whatever you have to do to make yourself happy. life is hard enough, the simple things in life are what is supposed to make the struggles all worth it. so with that being said, i wish you nothing but the best on your next venture in life. I hope Chicago treats you well.

until next time .. continue to LIVE !

Aitana said...

you should follow your heart ;)

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xoxo

La Petite Marmoset said...

Yayy! You're back!

La Petite Marmoset

Adele said...

awwwweee, i'm inspired with this post. there's some part in it where i can totally relate. anyway, God Bless with your plans, Caylee! hope you can get back to blogging SOON! :)


-adele
wallofmemoriesandstyle.blogspot.com

Adrianna Traxler said...

It's for sure an accomplishment to leave your state of place and start fresh somewhere new. I keep wanting to take that leap-so your strong for doing it. Blogging is a time consuming hobbie but it's hard to give all your attention to it with other life plans.

hope things only get better for you

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rachiex10 said...

Thanks for for this post Caylee. I am going through some difficult times right now and feel as though I lost myself. Everyone says it will get better and I'm sure that's true but it is still inspiring to hear your story and has helped to know things will work out with time.
Rachel

Bree said...

take care of yourself and the world of fashion will be waiting for your return...keep your faith often times we go through hard times because God is wanting to bring you closer to him. Embrace the loses and God's invitation

Hope said...

I obviously only know you from your blog, and this is clearly personal, and I don't know what exactly your struggles are, but you seem like a great girl, so I will say this: 1. Moving away from home is necessary and good for all people, even if it's tough - so I say excellent choice! 2. If I were you I would personally NOT take a hiatus from blogging. You are one of those few lucky people who has enough talent/beauty/skill to have a REALLY popular fashion blog, and blogs are, of course, the future of all information. I think maintaining an amazing blog (as you have) could really help you find your happiness. Just think about what it has gotten you so far - with Olsenboye, etc. Keep it going, when you're ready : )

♥ D.M. said...

Hi Caylee, I just wanted to let you know that your post really spoke to me. I too feel like I'm in a "life funk" as you put it. On paper, my life appears to be going great, but something inside me just doesn't feel satisfied - my passions are not "fulfilled" and I haven't quite figured out how to address that yet. Sometimes our lives move so quickly - so much happens day in and day out that we let time get away from us. I hope that you are able to find something that you're passionate about and I applaud you for taking the time to do that because it does take courage and a lot of soul searching. Best of luck!

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Jerrica said...

Glad to hear you've taken the leap and moved into a big city. It takes a lot of courage and energy to fight and work hard for your goals. Hope to see your new posts soon and your kinks are straightened so you can be closer to satisfaction.

De,
Fashion Nostalgia

Kristiane said...

I've been missing your blogposts!

Xx, Norway

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hélène said...

Very inspiring, Caylee! And you have no idea how many people are in the same shoes (myself included, i took a huge leap of faith and moved to nyc this summer- best thing i've ever done). But the thing is most people don't do anything about it. Your proactive approach will definitely take you far-- keep at it.
xx

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